currently reveling...

Today I was talking to a friend about reveling in the ambiguity of life. That is currently where I'm at in life. Reveling in the gray areas, in the unanswered questions, in the uncertainty that comes with each sunrise.

Why am I reveling? Well, because I can. I am no longer restrained by other's beliefs, by the insistence that every question has a definite answer. Because, let's be honest, they don't. Oh, sure, you can give the large questions of life definite answers, but for what end? When it comes down to real life situations, seldom do those definite answers provide an easy out.

Sure, I can say that I am a passifist, and war is never the answer. But then I am reminded of the injustice that has been stopped by a few years of war. I can say that divorce is never the answer, but then I am faced with the reality of lives spent in misery because of an unhappy marriage.

Therefore, I am reveling in the fact that I can come to no definite answers to most questions. Does this mean that I give up the search for these answers? Absolutely not. But it does mean that I quit discussing things in order to come to a quick conclusion, and learn to discuss things in order to learn from the discussion itself. For in open conversation, we often get closer to the answers we are searching for, than we do when we enter a debate or enter a discussion searching for answers.

I have found a few people that have been willing to enter into these discussions with me. And for that, I am extremely grateful. For, as the Wizard says in Wicked says, "There are precious few at ease with moral ambiguites, so we act as though they don't exist."

I propose that no matter how hard we attempt to pretend that these ambiguites don't exist, they do. And in my experience, (and the experience of Elphaba in Wicked, if you've seen the play), we often cause much more harm by avoiding ambiguites, than by facing them.

So, that is my suggestion. That we learn to disuss topics in order to savor the discussion. That we appreciate life for the fact that it is uncertain. That we appreciate the situations that challenge our solid answers, and revel in the opportunity to consider other perspectives and possiblities. For uncertainty is where we find growth. Without uncertanity, we wouldn't have to challenge our thoughts and beliefs and would remain stagnant our wholes lives. There would be no diversity of thought or person. If we find this apprecation, and attempt to acknowledge, discuss, and revel in uncertainty, we will learn how to improve our actions and decisions in each new uncertain situation.

I guess that's all. Just something to think about. I definitely am just learning this lesson, and will probably be doing my best to avoid uncertainty tomorrow because of the discomfort that comes with it, but then I'll read this blog, and be reminded why I'm learning to love it.

Good night and Good Luck with whatever journey you find yourself on.

Lauren